Nobody Knows

I wrote ‘Nobody Knows’ after my friend NUUXS released her song ‘No Good For Me’ – an anthem about cutting toxic people out of your life. It made me think about some of those people in my own life. People who, on the surface, are your friend but who actually use you as a floatation device and a punching bag – pushing you down to keep themselves up, and jabbing at you to stay sharp. I’m someone who internalises stuff and obsesses over it, who can never switch themself off – I wear my heart on my sleeve and my sleeve soaks up everything. ‘Nobody Knows’ is really a release for me of years of feeling written off and made fun of for “not doing anything” when I knew I was giving so much – parts of me these people would never give. And, because of that, feeling totally alone and like no one gets me or could ever get me…then feeling ashamed of that self-pity. It’s brooding and bitter – a warning that you never really know what someone is going through or how they’re feeling, unless you ask. We are so quick to judge and condemn, these days. It’s only by taking the time to put yourself in someone else’s shoes that you can begin understand the toll it takes chasing their dream, and how hard it can be for them just to keep going – a kind of toughness that only comes from being constantly vulnerable.

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